ahem

okay. how to start this.

i'm not good with writing. never been good with it actually. i always have this HuUUUGEEE writer's block when i put my fingers on the keyboard, ready to type.

the suck-est thing is that. i. actually. had the words i want to express arranged in my mind before i turn my laptop on or take my pencil to make notes on a scrap of paper. but then right when i do that BOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMM all the words i had just vanished like someone has abrasively erased my brain.

and. my grammar sucks. seriously. and my vocabulary too. i'm not good with english, yet i act like i do lol you sucka.

main reason why i write this post?
because this semester i got academic writing lecture once a week and every week my professor would ask us to write a short paragraph contains not more than 10 sentences and if your writing sucks he will not hesitate to show your task to the classes which he teach and i can't even barely imagine if he got my writing on his power point and show it to everyone and he will say lightly that I've done a terrible job with my task because the words I've written down don't make any sense.

out of breath. bye.